The End is Near!!

Tonight is the eve of the birth of our little girl. I stayed home from church tonight to attempt to tie up a few loose ends and perhaps spend a few minutes of quiet time before things get crazy...or should I say crazier than they already are. Let me tell you, I am glad to see this pregnancy end! I have been so miserable the last couple of weeks that simply walking has been a trial. I'm not sure why; I don't think Emerson is going to be overly large or anything, but I have been sore and achy from my hips down. At the same time, I'm starting to feel the nerves kick in as I think about what lies ahead for me. The whole c-section, hospital stay, and recovery aren't things I'm looking forward to. I'm kind of a recluse when I'm not feeling well, and being in a hospital and trying to be cheery for all the folks who are excited to meet our little one will be trying. Not to mention that I start imagining germs on every person and thing in sight. No, I'm not crazy (at least not certifiable), but I do tend to worry about things when I probably should just relax.

On top of that, my mom is in Alabama with my sister, Rebecca, who just had her little girl last weekend. I'm glad Mom can be there for her since it's her first one and all, but part of me would love to be selfish and beg her to come home. But, I wont; I'll just have to share! By the way, my new niece is named Ava Julianne, and she's adorable in all the pictures I've seen. I just wish we could be together, but that will happen in time.

I doubt I'll sleep a wink tonight because I'm so excited/nervous/anxious about tomorrow. I'm just praying and hoping with all of my heart that she's healthy and everything is where it's supposed to be and working like it should. I'm also praying that I'll somehow be able to juggle three children, one with so many appointments it makes my head spin, and that I'll be able to be the mom I need to be to my three precious children. So if you think of us, whisper a prayer. We can use everyone you have to spare! I'll try to add some pictures whenever time allows. :)

And then Phillip decided to add another worry to my mind last night when he said, "What are you gonna do when she comes out a boy?" That would not be even funny at this point!

On my last night as a mother of two...I'm signing off!
Blessings to you all,
Bethany